The PAST will be the Past

"Each has his past shut in him like the leaves of a book known to him by heart and his friends can only read the title."

~ Virginia Woolf ~

Well I am as you can guess by the Quote you just read I am probably going to write something about my past. That would be a correct guess my friend although I don't plan to write what it is that I have been dwelling on the past few days just that it brings up a lot of different emotions in me and the past few days have been hard on me to go through it all. So I have been sleeping A LOT to try and forget those emotions or atleast get over them again and move on again. It is a very hard thing to do but in my case it has to be done. One reason being is when one memory comes back to me usually a flood of them come back and I don't always get to choose which ones come back so sometimes painful ones come back. Some remind me of the stupid choices I had made in my past (Some at which I regret deeply and wished with all my heart were different) and I just don't like thinking about those memories. Then there are some memories that bring a lot of joy to me but because I no longer talk to some the people in those memories hurts to think of just how much I miss those few people and wished I still had them in my life, still could call and talk to them, hang out with them, to just be a part of their lives. So I just wanted to say even if the people I am talking about NEVER ever read this.. I am deeply sorry to all the people in my life I have wronged in my past. Some of the things I did I wished I didn't or wished I did differently and I truely am sorry for the hurt, pain and anger I have caused in my past. I am not perfect nor will I ever be but I do want it known that the things I have done in the past that I see now as wrong (some things I knew were wrong then but I was being selfish) I regret them and so in order to move on with my future or atleast try to start moving I had to let you know I know I was wrong and I am sorry. That is all I feel like writing because now my mind is in a bad place again.

“One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.”

#81 completed!! SWEET

Well I been in a bad mood this week. Got in a car accident on Monday and it's become one big mess and so blah!! Anyways I finished # 81 on my list "Create my top 101 Classic Rock Songs" and I did. Some of them were a little harder for me to find bc I didn't exactly know the name of some songs or what band sung the song so it tool a little time lol. Anyways here is the list, it's in no special order except the first one "take on me" by Aha is my favorite FAVORITE song of all time always has been always will be : )


1. “Take on me” Aha
2. “Hotel California” The Eagles
3. “All right now” Free
4. “Free Bird” Lynard Skynard
5. “War Pigs’ Black Sabbath
6. “Master of Puppets” Metallica
7. “Don’t stand so close to me” The Police
8. “Do you feel like we do” Peter Frampton
9. “Stuck in the middle with you” Stealers Wheels
10. “Magic Carpet Ride” Steppenwolf
11. “Take it Easy” The Eagles
12. “The Joker” Steve Miller Band
13. “Just what I needed” The Cars
14. “A horse with no name” America
15. “Bad Company” Bad Company
16. “Refugee” Tom Petty
17. “Kashmir” Led Zepplin
18. “Love is Alive” Gary Wright
19. “Dreams” Fleetwood Mac
20. “Paranoid” Black Sabbath
21. “Rockin’ down the highway” Doobie Brothers
22. “American Woman” The Guess Who
23. “Every little thing she does is magic” The Police
24. “Life in the fast lane” The Eagles
25. “For whom the bell tolls” Metallica
26. “(I can’t get no) Satisfaction” The rolling stones
27. “Pinball Wizard” The Who
28. “Free Fallen” Tom Petty and the heatbreakers
29. “Low Rider” War
30. “Dead or alive” Bon Jovi
31. Back in Black” AC/DC
32. “Rock & Roll” Led Zepplin
33. “More then a feeling” Boston
34. “Come as you are” Nirvana
35. “Enter the Sandman” Metallica
36. “Come Together” Aerosmith
37. “Paradise City” Guns N Roses
38. “Dancing in the Dark” Bruce Springsteen
39. “the Unforgiven” Metallica
40. “Ironman” Black Sabbath
41. “Peacful easy feeling” The Eagles
42. “Fly like an Eagle” Steve Miller band
43. “Simple Man” Lynard Skynard
44. “Feel Like making Love” Bad Company
45. “Gypsy” Fleetwood Mac
46. “Paint it Black” The rolling stones
47. “King of Pain” The Police
48. “Mary Jane’s Last Dance” Tom Petty and the heartbreakers
49. “Black Dog” Led Zeppelin
50. “Don’t Look Back” Boston
51. “Why Can’t we be friends” War
52. “Rock N’ Me” Steve Miller Band
53. “Dream Weaver” Gary Wright
54. Message in a bottle” The Police
55. “You can’t always get what you want” The rolling stones
56. “Go your own way” Fleetwood Mac
57. “Dream On” Aerosmith
58. “Take a walk on the wild side” Lou Reed
59. “Black magic Woman” Santana
60. “One of these nights” The Eagles
61. “Black Water” The Doobie Brothers
62. “In bloom” Nirvana
63. “Rock the Casbah” The clash
64. “I ran so far away” Flock of seagulls
65. “Sweet Emotion” Aerosmith
66. “Hells Bells” AC/DC
67. “Jet Airliner” Steve Miller band
68. “Landslide” Fleetwood mac
69. “Rhiannon” Fleetwood Mac
70. “Miss You” The Rolling Stones
71. “Listen to the Music” The Doobie Brothers
72. “What a fool Believes” The Doobie Brothers
73. “Jesus is just alright” The Doobie Brothers
74. “The Cisco Kid” War
75. “You don’t know how it feels” Tom Petty, Heartbreakers
76. “I wont back down” Tom Petty, Heartbreakers
77. “Green eyed Lady” The guess who
78. “No Sugar Tonight” The Guess Who
79. “Stairway to Heaven” Led Zeppelin
80. “Whole Lotta Love” Led Zeppelin
81. “All of my Love” Led Zeppelin
82. “Immigrant Song” Led Zeppelin
83. “Fool in the Rain” Led Zeppelin
84. “Misty Mountain Hop” Led Zeppelin
85. “Over the hills and far away” Led Zeppelin
86. “Ramble On” Led Zeppelin
87. “rock n roll fantasy” Bad Company
88. “All right now” Bad Company
89. "Anyway you want it" Journey
90. “Peace of Mind” Boston
91. “Foreplay/long time” Boston
92. “Show me the way” Peter Frampton
93. “Baby I love your ways” Peter Frampton
94. “Another one Bites the dust” Queen
95. “Somebody to love” Queen
96. “You’re my best friend” Queen
97. “feels like the first time” Foreigner
98. “comfortably numb” Pink Floyd
99. “Wish you were here” Pink Floyd
100. “Who are you” The Who
101. “Teenage Waste land” The Who
102. “wont get fooled again” The Who

I'll switch out the current playlist I have on my blog with this one ;D So if you want to listen to them feel free to : ]

Aud

I read this on a magazine today

and wanted to share it with you seeing as Summer is right around the corner!! It is in the Good Housekeeping magazine June 2011 issue. It's called "A Grab-and-go Summer" on page 27.

I think the ideas for this are pretty awesome such as bring an empty makeup ba that will hold your wallet and cell phone, money whatever small MUST have items. Also the whole carabiner hook to hold your keys onto your beach bag. If you have the Issue I am talking about there are alto of other interesting reads in there but this one I thought had some cool ideas and wanted to share them with others : ) Go get it if you don't ^ ^

Aud

Finished # 28 today - Write down 100 things that make me Happy

Well today I finally finished coming up with 100 things that make me happy (even a few extras in case I accidently used one twice : P) Here is my list!!


100 Things that make me Happy (I added 3 more incase I repeat)

1. My Kids
2. My Husband
3. Smell of Fresh cut grass
4. My favorite song “Take on Me” by Aha
5. Hearing a song that brings back good memories
6. Being outdoors
7. Crafts I make
8. Photography
9. Smell of Vanilla
10. Chocolate
11. Hanging out with good friends
12. Comedy
13. Watching Movies
14. Collecting frogs
15. collecting shot glasses
16. Visiting Historical Places
17. Remembering awesome memories
18. Seeing my loved ones Happy
19. Exploring
20. Random nice comments
21. Feeling needed
22. Feeling wanted
23. Being treated special
24. reaching my goals
25. looking @ old photos of myself
26. Feeling accomplished
27. Doing a good deed
28. Driving around for no reason @ Sunset
29. Playing board Games or card games
30. Seeing new places/things
31. Having my own runway show in my run
32. Christmas Lights
33. Having inside jokes
34. Giving great gifts
35. Making special handmade items for ppl
36. Reading a good book
37. Listening to music
38. Being told I look better as I get older
39. Laughing
40. Being easily amuzed
41. being weird
42. being remembered by ppl
43. Being invited to things even if I don’t want to go
44. when I feel sexy
45. when I am inspired
46. when I lose weight towards my goal weight
47. when I get really excited for no reason at all
48. when I get better @ something
49. when I see the fruits of my labor
50. when I get my way
51. Making and eating cannoli’s
52. early Saturday mornings when no one else is up
53. creative ideas
54. when ppl think I am cool for naming my son after a Star wars character
55. Getting new clothes
56. New shoes
57. New purses
58. Getting a random letter or postcard
59. having a good hair day
60. really good sex
61. Perfect Days
62. When it rains but it is sunny as hell outside still
63. finding money
64. finding something I lost
65. Actually seeing plants I take care of grow
66. Being silly
67. seeing my body tone up
68. giving out really good advice
69. smell of fresh brewed coffee
70. sunsets
71. sunrises
72. getting a present I really really wanted
73. feeling like I am a part of something
74. playing paintball
75. when I make money
76. Autumn
77. Spring
78. Summer
79. paying down or off a debt
80. being organized
81. A happy coincidence
82. Vacations
83. writing a great poem
84. when I am surrounded by trees
85. finding small things that remind me of ppl I car about
86. very soft sheets
87. lots of pillows on my bed
88. learning something about something just by watching
89. being tanned just right
90. feeling appreciated
91. nice smelling candles
92. Just walking around
93. Flowers
94. smell of wood being cut
95. smell of leaves burning
96. feeling clean
97. feeling a little adrenaline
98. comfy P.J.’s
99. being me
100. being productive
101. watching the stars (makes me feel connected)
102. dreaming about the future
103. New experiences

: ) So there ya have it lol. I am getting close to # 81 as well but still have a little of it to finish. Well later going to go enjoy Mother's Day I have been getting some great things from my kids, husband and even my Mother in law today : )

Aud

# 89 Photography a animals life cycle

Well we had a House Finch family living in our pooper scooper since April 4th and there was 6 babies altogether. We got to witness as the female Finch laid one egg a day til there was 6 total. (The female lays clutches of eggs from February through August, two or more broods per year with 2 to 6 eggs per brood, most commonly 4 or 5.) So I tried to take photos of them as they grew up and today I helped them all get to freedom. They were trapped in my back porch and our Dog was trying to chase them (He doesn't know any better plus his breed is meant to chase birds) so I had to hand carry them to the back yard and they flew out of my hands. It was pretty awesome. So here I post some pics I been taken of them the past month.

For more info on House Finches or to know where I got my info from I went here:


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/House_Finch

Later gotta teach my youngest to ride without training wheels : ]

Aud